This isn’t one of those 3-step, quick-fix articles. This isn’t a short story of my lonesome battle with a happy-ever-after cure for feeling lonely. Because guess what? I still feel lonely sometimes! Going into my third year of college, not even a teenager anymore, and I still get tried and challenged with loneliness? I guess you could say my title is misleading, but I guess I can hope that it reaches others who are in this lonesome lagoon with me.
“He comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.”
After writing that first paragraph, I got annoyed with the word “lonely”. Naturally, I Googled synonyms for “lonely”: isolated, forsaken, alone, outcast, abandoned, unaccompanied, and so on. Those words hold an unwanted weight just by their sound, but more so when they’re felt. When I think deep enough, I don’t feel forsaken or abandoned… I know I have friends who love me. Yet when I think in a different direction, I come to terms with just how much I value quality time with someone, pretty much anyone (thanks to 5lovelanguages.com).
I remember during my last few weeks living at home, I still felt alone when I had two people and a dog just up the stairs! I would lay in bed, all ready to fall asleep, just wanting someone to be there. I felt like I was missing something. The feeling would usually subside when I journaled or when I did devotionals, but sometimes my soul still felt only partially filled. But I thought God was the only one who could completely fulfill us? What was I doing wrong?
“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.”
Now that I’m at school, I would find myself spending entire days with people, excited to have me-time for a minute in the evening. But that’s just it: me-time for a minute; I didn’t need anything longer! I’m still confused, Lord. What am I still faulting in?
“Even to your old age and gray hairs, I am He, I am He who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.”
I’m missing the mark somewhere. The Lord surely comforts me as I believe His truths. There it is, folks: believing. Some small part of me is still searching for something else to comfort me; I haven’t been believing that ALL I need is Jesus. This is my fault, I believe I can fix myself. This is the reality: only Jesus can fix whatever part of me seems to be falling apart.
“Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.”
It might seem like a breeze to read, write, or say these truths…but it’s a sandstorm to act upon them. This is me, today, right now. I have not only written this to encourage others, but also to encourage myself. His words will be written on my heart and put into my mind. Here we are, friends. Struggling together, but sharpening each other. There is Jesus, right above ya and before ya and behind ya. He’s in control, patiently waiting for us to fully trust that He is truly in control.
Ask the Lord what it looks like for you to place your complete reliance on Him. For me, it’s spending less time on social media and more time in His Word. For me, it’s journaling more often and praying in tongues frequently (which are two things I have been slacking on).
“Let us test and examine our ways, and return to the Lord!”
What’s holding you back? Challenge your tendencies and ask God to reveal your own mind to yourself. Get to know yourself, girl! Get to know your CREATOR!
“Faithful You are. Faithful forever You will be. Faithful You are. All Your promises are YES & AMEN.”