The Depths of the Unknown

I will trust here in the mystery. I will trust in You completely.

“Go to college”, they say;

“Get a big-girl job”, they say;

“Create a family of your own”, they say.

But isn’t there more to it? Who’s to decide that life is these simple and conventional steps?

Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.

I decide.

I get to decide who I want to be. Do I want to be the girl who buys the latest trends and shops in my free time, or do I want to be the servant who dedicates time and money to things that will last? I could be the one who skips class to sleep in, or I could be the one who wakes up early to pray for my professor before class.

This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us.

I get to decide if I want to teach here or there, join this or that. Here’s the catch: Even when I decide, the only thing that will make ANYTHING I do meaningful, is if I do it for my God.

And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose.

Yes, I want to stay in college to get a big-girl job so I can support my own family some day, but there’s more. I want to join the military, I want to be certified in cutting and styling natural hair, I want to teach in Africa, I want to spread the Gospel to unreached areas. My whole future feels up in the air. All I know is how to be a student. How could God be directing me toward something I feel so ill-equipped for? Is it possible that He’s leading me straight into the unknown?

Call to Me and I will answer you, and I will tell you great and mighty things, which you do not know.

I can’t help but wonder what I could be missing if I didn’t obey His calling. And I can’t help but be prayerful that I would receive the wisdom to discern His voice from my own. I keeping thinking, “Check your intentions, Gretchen”. Where is my heart and where does God want my heart to be? Are my plans selfish, or serving? Are the possibilities for me or for God?

As you can see, I don’t have the answers! That’s the beautiful mystery of the unknown. We all know what tends to accompany unknown plans– fear. We are afraid of failure, rejection, distance from God, suffering, loss; we are even afraid of missing out on what we say, “no” to in order for us to say, “yes” to God.

Let me share a few songs with you, friends.

  • “Unknown” by Mosaic MSC
  • “Heroes” by Amanda Cook
  • “Death was Arrested” by North Point Insideout
  • “My Revival” by Lauren Daigle

These tunes tell the truth of the Lord Jesus Christ. They embrace His mystery, they encourage us to step out of our comfort zones, they allow us to lean into His wonder as we get to know Him on a deeper level, they remind us of His promises, and they settle us into trusting Him.

Though life is confusing and decisions need to be made, do not give up on God. Keep seeking an answer from Him, and He will tell you what you need to hear. Persevere with patience and expect a response. Let Him handle your heart fully and completely, He will handle it with care. Read that again.

He is faithful! He knows what’s best for you. Listen for that still, small whisper.

God is faithful, and He will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation He will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

I am praying for you, friend. I am praying for clarity, insight, discernment, wisdom, and an answer. I pray that you would receive His Holy Spirit in such a powerful way that you have no doubt what He is telling you. TRUST Him.

And a great and mighty wind tore into the mountains and shattered the rocks before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. After the earthquake there was a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire came a still, small voice.



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